2 Minutes.
I can fly.
That's what 2 minutes of dancing felt like. That's what 20+ years of thinking and doing dance felt like on this body, so laden of late with more mundane and mental concerns. That's part of the seduction of dance, that we transcend this world of care. If you love, you can dance. On some level, and even without music, dance is the expression of love, spoken without words.
It's easy to forget why I fell in love with dancing, these days. Why it thrills my soul to wake up at 5am to dance, even as my body and mind struggle to follow along, and so often these days fail to do so. Why I miss teaching, with all the chaos and stress of the job. Why I wanted to follow my friends into the dance full-time, but, for a multitude of reasons, did not, nor will I.
My life, my goals, are elsewhere. But my heart stays with you, my dance. Forever.
That's what 2 minutes of dancing felt like. That's what 20+ years of thinking and doing dance felt like on this body, so laden of late with more mundane and mental concerns. That's part of the seduction of dance, that we transcend this world of care. If you love, you can dance. On some level, and even without music, dance is the expression of love, spoken without words.
It's easy to forget why I fell in love with dancing, these days. Why it thrills my soul to wake up at 5am to dance, even as my body and mind struggle to follow along, and so often these days fail to do so. Why I miss teaching, with all the chaos and stress of the job. Why I wanted to follow my friends into the dance full-time, but, for a multitude of reasons, did not, nor will I.
My life, my goals, are elsewhere. But my heart stays with you, my dance. Forever.
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And thankfully, dance is not a jealous mistress. She'll stand aside for other concerns, and still be there to love us when we come home to her.
When I was doing karate, I found after several years of study, that while fighting I would gointo a ste of eing that I called "floating". Where endorphins and adrenaline meshed into an unworldly state of mind where time slows down. Sure, doing kata I could go into a meditative state where Beta waves rule, but I never floated. When I gave up karate for so many reasons, I thought I was done with floating. Then, I danced on stage. Floating again. So I know how you feel. And dancing gives me a sense of love and wholeness, while the violence of fighting gives me in fact the opposite - a sense of seperation and isolation. So I now await my plastic knee impatiently. I want to dance again without pain or fear of pain.
That is what I have heard about any form of movement. That it is the closest we humans come to flying. It is an incredible feeling. I used to dance freeform as a child/teen to my favorite music, and for no other reason than to move to the rhythm, I still do, I just feel awkward because my movements have no 'set up' no formality, and in my opinion no beauty.
One of my favorite authors was once asked, after writing numerous volumes in a beloved series, what flying on a 'dragon' was like; her reply "Like being on the back of a race horse" (Anne McCaffrey); I would personally equate that with flying, period, not just on a figment of the imagination.
You are a beautiful dancer, Asim, I hope to be able to watch you dance for many years to come.
I remember a time when dance was the only thing real in my life… a time when dance took me to a place where there was no joy, no pain… nothing existed except "the dance", and the dance transcended all, and WAS all…
…it was my safe place…and at some point even that was taken away from me…
…I was too young to fight for it, too young to "take ownership" of it, too poor and hungry to know what sacrificing your soul for survival actually meant…
.. and at some point what brought me spiritual sustenance was replaced by those things that brought me physical sustenance…and I quit dancing… ‘cause I needed to survive…
But now I'm 34 years old… and all a' those demons are still there…weaker, but still there… and I'm wonderin' if dancin' is the answer???
…ands the truth is… I don't even have to ask…If I pursue what makes my soul happy, the rest will fall into place….
Wanna' dance with me, wanna ‘ sing, wanna' question the world with me????? "Cause those are the type of friends that I want in my life…
….and bar none….understand….MY NEED TO DANCE….
I thought you might like to be aware of this online resource group:
http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/healingdance/
Healing Dance Network - a web between the various healing dance studies,
theories, practitioners and proponents through which to find, share and
expand knowledge and understanding into the possibilities and realities of
healing through dance. I am hoping you will let us know about your own
search and findings and how we might work together to bring our learning
further.
Peace,
Laurie - libramoon42@mindspring.com
http://www.geocities.com/libramoon.geo/
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